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I'm a writer, a landscape painter, and I'm passionate about healing - individual, societal, and environmental.
My novels address issues that I consider important in a quirky, irreverent way. My painting reflects my love of the natural world.
House of Bread is an account of life in a UK psychiatric hospital, based on my own experience;
Badric's Island satirises the ridiculous and damaging advertising targeting women, and in Dead Pets Society, I try to find a way through our environmental crisis, our dependence on fossil fuel, our relationship with the natural world, and suggest that only a r/evolution in conscious awareness can save us.
My lived experience has made me a highly motivated advocate for truth and justice in medicine.
Currently, I'm writing a memoir exploring my experience of psychiatric and cancer treatment, and what these epidemics can teach us when viewed as a part of our environmental crisis; how I unraveled my diagnoses and my discovery of how these things are intrinsically linked.
Like many, I've spent my life wondering why I found it difficult to sustain the wellbeing I knew to be my birthright. There seemed to be no answers. I was told that it was just the way things were, and people with 'diagnosable mental illnesses' were just unlucky - the human equivalents of extreme, random, weather events.
But you don't have to be diagnosed by the psychiatric services to feel the dis-ease of modern life.
Many more suffer from chronic illness, which, like cancer and psychological illness, neither allopathic nor naturopathic medicine is able to cure reliably. Inevitable physical and, nowadays, mental deterioration is, we're told, just part of the human condition. This is part of the disease model we have been indoctrinated with and, in my view, must be challenged.
I've been on a cancer journey for a decade, and have barely left a stone unturned in the world of alternative or integrative medicine. After being violently sectioned by psychiatry in my twenties, very reluctantly, and under great pressure, I underwent conventional cancer treatment more than once, which left me with permanent physical damage.
I've endured suicidal depressions as my body-mind processed what happened to me, and I've delved deeply into my own conditioned beliefs and imprints from my upbringing in this society. Despite the trauma and the life-changing outcomes, I remain hugely grateful to all the amazing healers and medical practitioners who have educated and treated me, both in the UK and in Mexico, and with caveats, even when that education was a less than positive experience.
Now, despite a 'terminal diagnosis', my belief in the healing potential of the earth, our bodies, minds, and hearts by natural means remains unshakeable. But only if and when we take the time to learn about our personal and planetary deep ecology. This is a journey into profound wonder and joy at the exquisite, intricate web of life of which we are each a unique and an essential part.
The understanding that self-care and our individual healing journeys are each a vital part of the healing of our struggling planet couldn't be a more powerful incentive to wake up, clean up, choose love over fear every time, and join in the birthing of the new paradigm.
Thanks to the work of Anthony William, the Medical Medium, I'm witnessing profound healing in my body and psyche. I now understand that the fight is not with ourselves, our own bodies or minds, but with the potent and often lethal mix of toxicity, pathogens and trauma, which we all are subject to at this time because of our broken system with its bio- and ecocidal policy the world over. This must end now if we are ever to achieve wholistic health.
Despite all our personal, social and environmental problems erupting and our system being shaken to its core by the polarising 'coronavirus pandemic' and profoundly misjudged economic reset, the will and potential to heal is real and tangible: we are witnessing a great awakening as so many across the world are reclaiming their personal sovereignty and 'being the change'.
We can't idealise a lost Eden, but we can, even within the constraints of our society and the mess we've made of our world, get back to the garden. And be healthy and, most importantly, happy. Healing is a spiritual journey, it can lead nowhere else, and it's great to be here now.